pmoney25;1453206 wrote:May 14 2010. I went to a Urologist for what was thought to be Kidney stones because I had blood in my urine. Dr ran some tests. Couldn't really see anything. So before I was leaving he asked if he could run one more test and that he normally wouldn't do the test unless I was like 60 years old but just wanted to be sure. So he did cystoscopy where he takes a long tube with a camera on the end and sticks it up through your pee hole and looks around your bladder. I am watching the screen and I don't really notice anything. Dr tells me to look at my normal bladder then moves the camera and says this is a tumor. The first word out of my mouth was fuck as I instantly thought I was dying.
So I get dressed and go sit in a counseling room for about 5 minutes by myself and just was in complete shock. I was by myself because I didn't really think the appointment would be anything serious. So the Dr comes in and talks to me and I honestly couldn't tell you what he said other than surgery would be about two weeks out. So on June 2nd 2010, Dr removed the tumor and it hasn't come back and luckily for me it was found early and had no spread. My next checkup is two weeks away so hopefully that continues.
There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about it. And while I occasionally have moments where I get paranoid about any sort of ache or illness I have and think it is Cancer it is no where near what it was the first few months after. I literally studied every symptom from every known cancer.
After all that, my biggest fear was not dying it was thinking that if I did die soon that my children wouldn't even remember me as they were both still really young. I owe my life to my Dr who decided to go the extra step instead of sending mre
Been down that road twice ... with cancer
I know the feeling and the concerns